32 weeks and i'm feeling ok!
this baby is starting to make things rather uncomfortable, especially at night. i'm not sure if i even mentioned this with my pregnancy with ian, but i'm a hardcore stomach sleeper and being pregnant kind of throws a wrench into that whole thing! i've borrowed one of the pregnancy sleep pillows from a dear friend and that has been my saving grace so far, but unfortunately now this baby is getting bigger and more active, i'm sleeping less and less. the heartburn has also reared its ugly head and that often gets so bad, it wakes me up. overall, i'm still getting some sleep which is good! definitely preparing me for a newborn again, although the timing is kind of stinky, as ian has just about started sleeping through the night reliably! typical ;)
the last couple weeks ian has really started to pick up his language. we're definitely hitting that language explosion and it's fun to hear him putting together little sentences. he's started saying "hi baby" unprompted by me, as well as "sorry baby" when he accidentally (or not so accidentally) bumps my tummy or jumps on my lap a little too boisterously.
33 weeks and feeling tired haha! didn't even get my camera out for these ones unfortunately.
i honestly believe this baby thinks the way out is through my right side. he or she spends the majority of the day entirely over there and in the evening kicks and pushes something wicked all the way around almost by my back. i have a sore spot on my right side and the midwife said it's possible to get a bruise on the inside when the baby sticks with one spot a lot! i don't remember this feeling with ian...he moved so much, but always all over...never in the same place all the time.
this week has also brought on some anxiety about how on earth i'm going to manage two! i am lucky that hubby gets a week of paternity leave this time, but after that i will be on my own with a two year old and a newborn. i feel like some days i struggle to get everything done with just ian around, let alone him and an infant who requires feeding every two hours and diaper changes as often, if not more! when will i do laundry, clean the house, cook meals, eat meals, sleep??? i'm not quite sure! i know when i hold this little one in my arms and he or she smiles up at me, it will all be worth it, but right now i'm in the scared and anxious phase. i've also realized that i have nothing ready for the baby at all. by this time with ian, we had things starting to get set up, clothes in the wash, diapers prepped. currently for this one, nada. clothes are still packed away, as are the diapers. car seat, swing, crib...you name it...all still need putting together and washing or cleaning. so. much. to. do! *sigh*
well, hubby has a business trip coming up, so i think i will set my days and nights to organizing and laundry. i know this must be the start of nesting lol...not too long to go now!!
dear little one,
the summer is coming to a close. children are heading back to school and fall is right around the corner. i remember being pregnant with your big brother and getting excited for the crisper days and darker nights, knowing it was bringing us closer to meeting him. unfortunately mother nature is still clinging to summer and decided to bring us a heat wave for the last week of august. it's been in the 90's the past couple of days and i remember why i didn't want to be pregnant in the summer again. so much for that plan ;)
for the first time this past week, i have started to feel like i'm running out of room inside for you. i'm starting to get winded just having a conversation and when i ran hills at boot camp on monday, i felt like a fish out of water gasping for air! eating is hit or miss...sometimes i feel so hungry, take two bites and feel full...other times i can eat a whole plate just fine.
i'm starting to wonder more and more whether you are a boy or a girl :) with ian, i was content to wait until the very end. it never really bothered me not knowing. this time around it's niggling in the corner of my mind, haha. if i sit too long and think, i start wondering about life with a baby girl or baby boy. how will you look (or not look) like your brother? if you are a girl, will you be born with hair or as bald as ian was? if you are a boy, will you be a mini me version of ian or represent different physical characteristics from our families? so many questions!! at least we are almost there. we have your names chosen and occasionally i'll have ian practice them. it's so cute to hear him say your name. i can't wait to know which one it will be :)
stay safe and healthy (and try out my left side every once in a while...it can't be much different from the right, but it would help your mummy out a bunch!).